That feeling na, i fell inlove with someone who is committed. Dafuq. Can’t imgaine. I met this guy because of my friend Celine. I didn’t expect na magugustuhan ko siya. Yung tipong pagkakita ko sa kanya “Omg, I like him”. Without knowing his personality and life. Then after that, kinuha niya number ko. Tinext niya ako. After a few days, he confessed that he likes me, but the problem is he has a girlfriend. Nashocked ako. Kasi 2yrs and 6months na sila nung girl. Yung feeling ko is niloloko at pinagtitripan na naman ako. Pero nung medyo okay kami, he always keep on telling na “Ibebreak ko Gf ko para sayo”. Tignan mo, nakakatuwa na hindi. Kahit anong piliin ko, masasaktan at di ako magiging masaya. Pag hinayaan kong iwan niya gf niya, masasaktan yun at konsensya ko pa. Kapag ako naman iniwan niya, masakit. Tinataboy ko siya dati. But dumating sa point na nagMU kami. Aw, naging kabet ako. Pero di ko kinaya. After ilang days, nagbago siya. I don’t know why. Naging cold and etc. It hurts in my part withiout knowing the reason, diba? Para akong tanga nagaantay ng text niya pero wala. Nagbago siya bigla. As in. Then one day, he texted me. I confessed what i feel for him. But it seems that he dont care anymore. That he’s not interested. It hurts in my part knowing that i’m already inloove with him . I missed his sweet texts. I missed the person who care about me. I missed him. But they’re happy together. I should expect that it will happen. May gf at matagal na sila. Epal lang naman ako. And i can’t change that fact. Hm. And now, I don’t know how sad i am. Dont kknow how to react. Masakit. But i need to accept that i just came up to his life, to test him if he love his Gf. Pero ayun, mahal talaga niya si Gf. Move on na lang ako. Find my own happiness.
Hey its me when i’m bored. Ang vain ko lang. Di naman seductive diba? :)
They say na ang “Cheksi” ko daw dito. Pero natatawa lang ako. Sexy ba yung payat? Naganga diba? Pero natuwa naman ako sa compliments na natatanggap ko. Kasi ewan. Nakakatuwa talaga.
Ang kulit lang isipin na may nakakapansin pala sakin. Hm. Baka isipin niyo naman nagpifeeling model ako ah? Wala na akong pagasa dun kaya ako gumagawa ng sarili kong studio. Ang kulet no? Di kasi ako bagay dun eh. Panget ako. Di ako qualified/ Aw. Pangarap ko pa naman. Lol.
Okayyy. Wala na akong masabi sa sarili ko :)
I-judge niyo na lang.
Hi. Meet my super duper bestfriend. :)
She is Russell Ann “Ansel” Giron Mendoza, na mas kilala na si Semitao.
You know what? Kung di dahil sa taong to, lugmok ako ngayon. Yun tipong magisa lang ako at laging malungkot. But when i realized that i still have one person where i can lean on or cry on, my world has been changed. Even though I’m loveless, I don’t care. Kasi anjan naman si Bestfriend. Yun tipng, lahat ng tao pinapahiya ako, kelangan kong magpanggap sa kanila, pinaplastic ako at madami pa, pero siya? Neever akong sinaktan, iniwan at jinadge. Napapakita ko kung ano ako at nararamdaman ko when i’m with her. Different person ako kapag siya kasama ko. I can burst out my real thoughts, feelings ang everything. Unlike when i’m with my classmates, i always pretend that eveything is okay. Pero they don’t know na nahihirapan na akong kasama sila. Dumating nga sa point na etong 4th yr kami, di ko na cmate si Ansel at gusto ko na magpalipat sa sec niya. Mahirap kasing makisama sa Fake people. Kaya gusto ko si ANsel lang. She’s the only person who accept me for who i am. Who treated me the way i deserve. Kaya mahal na mahal ko tong bestfriend ko. Pag nawala siya? Ayoko na mabuhay. Kinakabahan nga ako magcollege kasi di ko na siya kasama eh. Ang lungkot. Hay. Kaya nga everyday gusto ko siya kasama. To cherish ever moment.
Russell, thank you for everything. You raised me up, when i’m down. Thank you. I love you so much. As in. :”)
"Maghapon tayong magkatext. May tawagan. Laging magkasama. Holding hands.
Sweet. PBB TEENS. Pero Landi-landian lang "Sana ganun na lang no. Yung sinasabi na agad. Yung magpapaalam sya sayo kung lalandiin ka lang nya. Yung hanggang landian lang kayo. Para malinaw agad. Didiretsyuhin ka nya. Hindi yung papahirapan ka pang magisip at guguluhin pa yung utak mo. Pag iisipin ka pa ng kung anu-ano. Mas mabuti na yung malinaw para naman alam mo kung hanggang saan ka lang at hanggang saan ang mga limitasyons mo/nyo.
- Para alam mong hindi mo dapat seryosohin lahat ng sinasabi at ginagawa nya
- Para maiwasan ang umasa
- Para naman alam mo kung anong estado nyong dalawa
- Para alam mong ganun lang talaga sya
- Para malinaw na agad. Makontrol mo na agad kung anuman ang mararamdaman mo.
Pero kung pumayag ka at pumasok ka sa gantong sitwasyon. Siguraduhin mong hindi ka mahuhulog kasi kung nagkataon, talo ka. Lalo na kung sa kanya hanggang landian lang talaga. Ikaw ang masasaktan at ang mahihirapan. Kasi yang landiang yan natatapos yan. Hindi yan yung relasyong pangmatagalan. Parang pampalipas oras lang yan, STOP-OVER kumbaga. Hanggang doon lang kayo.
Tanginang pagmamahal yan, bat kasi nauso pa.
“Bigyan mo sya ng pagkakataon na makasama ka, malay mo ikaw lang ang iniintay niyang rason para tuluyan niyang baguhin ang sarili niya.”
If you really do love someone, it’s not that easy to forget all the feelings, the love and the affection you have for her/him. You can’t easily say that, you have already move on, that you’re happy for them. You can’t blame yourself, for being bitter from the past, you can’t deny the fact, that you’re still attached to that person.
Love, don’t easily fades away. It takes time before you knew, that you’ve already move on. You need time, and friends, to help you recover. You don’t need to hide what’s inside you, your real feelings for that certain someone, if your hurt, then your hurt, because even if, he/she hurts you, somehow, the love is still there, don’t make it hard for you. It’s much harder to deny the truth, than to be real with yourself, you just need to face and accept all the things that happened, between you and the person.
Moving on is hard, yes of course, we all know that, but, you’re the only one, who can help yourself. You don’t need to seek advice from others, because, they don’t know how you feel, they’re not in your position to tell you what to do, you just need someone, who can listen, and someone, who will never judge what you really feel. You need to burst all the pain by crying, it can help a lot.
By the time, you’ll realize, that maybe, that person, is really not meant for you, that, there will be someone better, who can replace him/her, you just have to wait for that perfect moment. You’ll realize that, he/she don’t deserve you, don’t deserve your love, they don’t even deserve your tears, by that time, you’ll become more stronger to face and conquer love again.
